Whelp…we are a week away (maybe more, maybe less) from being a Crawford party of 3 and I decided it is about time that I hop back on the blog and take a look back on this pregnancy and update you guys on how it all has been.
It has been a long yet somehow quick journey to 9 months. It has gone fast at times and other times felt like it was crawling at the pace of a snail. It has definitely had its ups and downs and has been an interesting and exciting ride through uncharted territory.
Why I haven’t been blogging as much…
Some of you may not have even noticed the silence on the blog, while others have wondered and asked why I have not been blogging recently. I had all these intentions of walking you guys through every step of my pregnancy with workouts and foods to eat and all that fun stuff that good bloggers do but that just didn’t happen. To be completely honest, I didn’t want to blog those things because I just didn’t feel like it. I wanted to enjoy this pregnancy like anyone else and not have to worry about letting the whole world know every single update. I wanted to step away from the social media and just be present for all the 9 months of pregnancy with my boy growing in my belly.
I also didn’t want anyone else to compare their pregnancy story with mine. There were definitely times I spent looking at other pregnant women and wondering if I looked as good as them at whatever week I was at. I know a lot of preggo people right now and I did not want to put my eating and exercise updates up to make you feel guilty because you may not be doing the same (because you may be spending your weeks vomiting or whatever else pregnancy throws at you).
Every person’s pregnancy is very different and now that I know that I am ready to share a little more of how these past 39 weeks have been.
How my body changes have shaped my body image…
They don’t prepare you for how your body is going to change or how your body changes will be completely different from someone else’s changes. You think you are going to have this cute little bump and the only thing that will grow on your body is your belly right? Yeahhhh, not so much. There are a lot more changes that happen to your body than just a growing belly. For me, there were widening hips, a bigger butt, inner thighs that now touch, and bigger boobs (that don’t look at all perky and perfect?!).
There have definitely been days in this pregnancy where I feel frustrated that my body has changed and that it may not go back to what it was before baby. I have had days where I just had to pray that God would give me the peace of mind when it came to the way I saw myself during this pregnancy. Oddly enough, this last trimester (and last month especially) is when I have felt the most at peace with my body and all its changes, right when I am at my biggest. I don’t wince at the site of the scale or cringe when I see my thighs touch or my wide hips.
These 9 months of growing have taught me how strong my body really is and how capable I am. I am proud of my growing body and every change that may not ever look like it did before baby is just battle wounds and proof that my body can do something pretty incredible (because growing a human is definitely pretty incredible).
How I have been feeling...
I guess I am one of the fortunate ones that can honestly say I have felt pretty physically great since that 10 week mark, where I stopped feeling nauseous 24/7. I am still sleeping well, no swelling or aching back, and haven’t had any bad heartburn yet. I definitely feel large and in charge but I am not at the point where I feel miserably uncomfortable at all. I am extremely thankful it has been so smooth so far and I will just keep praying it keeps on going this way!
How I have been eating…
I have been eating just as I was before being pregnant, with intuition and balance. I eat what sounds good when it sounds good without guilt or second thought because “all in moderation.” Not because I am "eating for 2,” but because a balance of all things is what is best (and I’m not about taking any food groups out). I haven’t had any serious cravings but I am starting to wonder if some women have bad cravings of certain foods because they restrict themselves from those foods before being pregnant and they now give themselves an excuse to eat them during pregnancy. I am still happily enjoying ice cream and donuts, just like I was before being preggo.
What I have done for exercise…
Praise The LORD for the ability to exercise throughout this pregnancy. It has been my mental therapy (because wine is not an option haha) and I really feel like it has been the key to feeling so good throughout this whole pregnancy.
I have still been working out 4-6 days a week doing weight training and cardio. I have been doing exercises similar to what I did before pregnancy but have had to make modifications and have definitely slowed down these last few weeks. My husband and I have been doing all the at home workout videos with P90x, 21 Day Fix Extreme, and our favorite Les Mills Grit Strength. I try and walk about 3 miles at least 3 days a week with my crazy pups and neighbor but that has slowed some with the extremely cold temps.
Each week I get a little more surprised I am still working out and even more thankful that my body is still strong and capable.
What has been the hardest thing being pregnant…
LIMITATIONS SUCK. I was always the child that when told they could not do something, I did it anyways. I have a hard time hearing no to things.
There are a lot of limitations in pregnancy. Physical limitations and food limitations and those are my two favorite things but when you are growing a child, the no wins over any yes I want to say to my limitations.
-I want some dayummm sushi and a large glass of wine.
-I had burpees, pushups, and planks in most of my workouts and I can’t do any of those anymore because nobody likes split abs.
-I see people running down the street and watch in serious envy because it has been over 4 months since I have really run and even then I had to stop every 2 minutes to pee.
-I am limited in my wardrobe and probably wear the same 3 shirts most days.
-I want to drink allll the caffeine without a care in the world and to be able to see the bottom half of my body.
- Oh, and peeing in a cup at the doctors office without peeing all over my hand (because I can’t see what is happening down there) would be nice too.
The limitations have been hard but have also challenged me to find other things I really love and enjoy.
What have been the best things about being pregnant…
There are so many amazing things to witness during pregnancy. Although my body changes have been hard at times, I find it pretty incredible to watch my body do exactly what God created it to do when it comes to making a human. I would say the the thing I have loved the most is feeling all of the kicks and body parts squirming around in there. The past few weeks have been the best where I can feel his little butt and foot kicking out on each side.
I have also loved being able to connect with a new little community of preggos, new moms, and those not so new at the mommy job. My best friend is pregnant with twins and it is a dream of ours to be pregnant at the same time. Although I am ending my pregnancy while she is beginning it, it has been pretty awesome to walk through this journey with so many of my friends.
I think we are officially ready…
I mean I don’t know if you are ever officially ready for this but I think we are as ready as we can be at this point. The nursery is done (with pictures to come), the bassinet is ready, the baby clothes (some of them anyways) are washed, the bag is packed and now it is time to just wait for our sweet boy to join us.
I would be lying if I told you that I was not nervous at all but I know that God will give us the strength and ability to do this...and with the help of family and strong coffee, I think we are going to be just fine!
Prayers and thoughts are definitely welcome as we enter another journey of uncharted territory.
Feel free to share your advice for a new mom below or send me a message if you have questions about anything!
**PS...these pictures are from my talented friend Jessi Holland and they were taking at about 33 weeks...sooo the bump has definitely grown in size since then.